I Wish

Note to self: Pandora's Box is not meant to be opened.

I wander without seeing. I put my hands over my ears but that doesn't keep the inside noise out. I want to talk, but my language doesn't have words.

If I make my mind blank enough, nothing gets through it. I watch myself from another world, watch my body in this world go through its actions every day, watch it but without feeling a thing. There is so much inside my head that can't get out, I think it might blow up someday.

I wish I could flee the country, that country being myself. I wish my life was not a play. I wish I could stop acting.

I wish that when I blew out candles they would smoke forever.

I wish I could crawl inside you, because I'm not big enough for myself.

I wish there was a Get Out Of Life Free card.