Let Me Go

They are practicing the praise songs. I am supposedly listening. I am trying not to. The emptiness is alive and crawling inside me, blowing up, stuffing every crevace. I am not alive; I am only pretending to be. I do not care, I do not care, I do not care. Let the leaves bud or fall, let the waters flow or dry, I do not care. Births, weddings, deaths, all over again. Just let me be. Just let me be. Stop laughing, all of you. Stop laughing. It is not funny. Nothing is funny. Why are you laughing? You don't sound happy, you sound like you're forcing it, like none of you really want to be here either. Why?

Let me go, let me go. Stop trying to hang onto me, all of you. Just let me go.